its monday. "yay". hai. getting abit of the monday blues. i cant wait for the weekend to come. then its fun.

im supposed to go for snorkelling at some island on friday, but ms thio doesnt allow me to go cuz im in charge of badminton practice on that day. i hope ms thio talks mdm lim out of letting me go. i dont really want to go snorkelling. im scared. mainly, of sharks. and another thing, of shumei.

when we had the training session, and shumei was required to "save" me. she kept laughing and wouldnt let go of my head. i nearly drowned. and you know when you're underwater, everything seems magnified. and somehow shumei got in front of me and all i saw was her butt. being big as it already is, it looked bigger underwater and i couldnt help laughing. and so i choked as water got into my snorkel. i told wendy and matt wang. they kept laughing and laughing.

anw, nothing much to write about. and again, im bored. i guess i'll tackle my maths homework.

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im bored.

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bird shit dropped on joel lim's shirt today. and he didnt even notice. mikhtam saw and he started screaming like a girl.

anw, we won today's debate in english class. topic was Love is Selfish. mikh was practically using personal attacks against me. i made my point abt God being selfish and jealous, and he rebutted like crazy with totally irrelevant points. he was almost preaching. but nvm la. at least we won.

haiii. i cant wait for saturday to come. cant wait to bang on the drums again. i hope zQ's going. it would definitely make me happier.

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i just read the conversation between sher and kenneth that she sent me a long time ago. now its not mean and its rather funny cuz, well, no strings attached :)

im bored! hai. i cant do my homework cuz i left my workbook in de locker. see, thats the bad thing abt lockers.

i cant wait for next saturday lah. i hope zQ's going. he was bassist today. he looked sooo cool!! haha.. he handed me a few tys-es that he wasnt using anymore. sweet of him, right? im still abit sore abt the too young thing though. i think sher and bell should knw.

i think its gonna take me ages to get the n7610. i doubt im trading in my current phone. i'll give it to my dad since he's in love with it. besides, sher told me where i can get that phone first hand for only abt 500. thats really cheap compared to 800. scary.

its only four in the afternoon. arg. i dont wanna waste the day. well, i didnt waste it, cuz i went to church in the morning, so thats kind of a good way to spend the day. i sorta wish we could like, go to chruch everyday. its so fun! haha.

the drum beat was stuck in joel's and my head for the whole day. geez. i wanted to go into the hall after cell to bang around and maybe teach jon one or two bars. but there were people in there and i guess it would be rather annoying or embarrassing. i want a drum set! but i'd bet my grandma would never allow me to have one. well, not in the house. siann.

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golly, its almost ten. i hadn't realised we'd stayed out so late.

drum lesson started around 5:30 and ended around 6:30. half an hour off schedule. but anw, we all did fine, but i took some time to remember the drum beat again. zhi qiang was there, so i got really pressurized. it barely helped me, and i screwed up a number of times.

after lesson we stayed behind and sang along to the band while they practiced for tmr. zq was playing the bass and he looked really cool =P hui wen had helped me get a shot of him on the guitar. its really cool and i put it as my wallpaper. hahz.

i had a great time. at about 7, we left for JP and joel went home. sher and i went to the food centre and i watched sher eat since i was saving up for .. sumthing.

and i didnt knw sher was so lagging and slow. you know when you try to drop a hint? i had to like, explain it again and again and i finally just spoke my mind and she got it only then. yeesh. well, we went to walk around, and dad came to bring us home.

the stars were really nice and the moon was round. i spent most of the ride home gazing up and looking at the few stars that were in the sky. saw a constellation.

its been thirty hours since i ate something. well, excluding the chips we had after lessons. its after ten. my mom would kill me if i ate now.

tmr is church cleaning day -.- nid to bring extra clothes. sian.

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its exactly 5:50 in the morning. i've been up since nine yesterday morning. i just spent the last six hours watching tv. its getting annoying. i mean, i keep getting terrible cases of insomnia and i dont know how to cure it. i've been getting it but it was never this worse. man i'm gonna look a freak tonight. and of all days zhi qiang's gonna be there! could the timing be any worse..

i'm so tired but somehow i cant sleep. its really annoying.

i keep thinking about things that i dont want to think about. i juz cant help it. i guess its just stress.

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i think i kena caned without knwing it. i've a big mark across my right forearm and i dont remember getting it.

and i've had enough with the "why are u so hairy" questions. i cant help it, can i? and gaby has pretty legs. her legs are slick and .. uh.. smooth? not that i went to touch lah.. well maybe abit cuz she wanted me to feel .. ya okay okay enough with the descriptions..

sher's wearin skirt today so i guess i am too. im not used to wearing skirts outside. i once wore it while out w/ daniel and he said i looked like crap. well, not exactly those words. i made it sound more .. uncivilised. do skirts go w/ sport shoes? no rite? haiii. i guess i'll hav to wear the only "elegant" shoes i have and brave the blisters today. i was counting on wearing a skirt again on sunday, too. ah well.

and gaby talks in her sleep. its freaky. i mean, imagine waking up at midnight and hearing some muttering noises of words you cant make up. it freaks me out because sometimes i forget that gaby sleep-talks.

i slept at seven last night. but hey, it was unintentional. i was sooo bored that i lay on my bed and let my mind wander. i woke up at midnight and heard gab muttering again -.- spooky okay. did you watch "my left eye sees ghosts"? the girl's left eye was covered by a bandage and she couldnt see the ghosts but heard them muttering. i was totally freaked.

haha ok.. enough with the crap..

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i havent been updating. im always updating my other one.

i duno if we're still going on friday. isabelle says see first, joel says see first, and shumei says see first. i hope joel confirms really soon, cuz if he's going, i'll ask him to ask chih chiang along.i'd like to see him outside of church for once.

i really wanna finish reading the book surviving adolesence, but we're required to read 10 fiction books by the end of this year. if only they allowed non-fiction. because i have a whole lot of christian books i wanna finish reading.

and i miss him =D

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gab just left to meet cherie. i really wanted to go .. but i already promised jon and xf i'd be going to jon's place. haiii.. nvm.. a promise is a promise.. God will be happy i kept that ..

seeyuhz ...

sianz.. doesnt anyone believe in updating?..

haii. yesterday juz ran 2.4, and i had badmin training just nw. i'll gonna suffer tmr. double dose of muscle ache. i hope i dont get muscle cramp tonight tho. it hurts like mad.

everytime i hear a song with a lively drumbeat, i cant wait to get back behind the drum set. i cant wait for tmr.

argh! msn connection failure!!

sher was right. mr yaw can be really fun, but when its time to run 2.4, he'll really push you. near the end, he pushed me like crazy. i was already gasping for breath and he still told me to run shoulder-to-shoulder. i was doing okay for awhile, but later i couldnt take it. at the last 50 metres, i totally conked out. i took awhile to catch my breath.

i was walking around to help the blood circulation, and aaron kept shouting for me to sit down -.- qian bian.

i lost my phone for awhile after pe. haha.. then recovered it at the second last lesson. i wasnt quite sad cuz since new year was coming, i had a reason to get a new phone :) so the people around me was more anxious than me. i was already making plans on what phone to get [wendy's], and then i found it.

but just as well. i mean, all the photos and msgs.. well, it was actually a blessing i guess.

went to tiong with the usual peeps. met kevin dere too. i duno why lah, but i always end up having a stupid small argument with jon. yeesh. and i duno why i had to take out my composition to show him. its a journal entry, and its rather confidential between my teacher and me la.

but anw, jon, isa and xf left without us. and its like. wad de. okay la, so i waited for sherlyn to finish her drama thinger. i called joel for awhile for a talk. he had to go like, really soon, so i was stoning on the bench. we met them at tiong's mac, and all we got from them were just one weak smile. its like, hello? i think we deserve a better greeting than that.

went window shopping, and i got really bored. we settled down at bk and we were like, in three groups. jon and xf were at one table, bell and kevin were at one table and sherlyn and i were at another. pathetic. its the first time i went out like that.

sherlyn and i bought a mirror =D come on, we're little ladies now. sher had ta pay for me first, cuz, well, i came out with twenty odd, and it got spent unexpectedly. its a long story. but i'll get it back. just did it to help out an ex-fairsian.

the rest went off at about six plus. but sherlyn was waiting for shaun chua so i pei-ed her awhile. did my humans homework while waiting. ya, when i finished an essay question, we went off.

and here i am. okay i gotta go take a bath. tah.

i love my haircut !!

haha.. i've been swooning over my hair since i stepped out of the chair. all three of us were touching our hair loads of times and smiling.

ya so today was fun. yea.

i was in the lift with this little boy and his dad. and the little boy looked at me and called me "mummy!" soooo cute!! i was like.. i want a kid right nw. and the girls were just talking about how we arent gonna give birth next time because we were all scared pain =P

i went with sherlyn to tiong to finish homework. and surprisingly i could finish while there. sherlyn was listening to her mp3 lah, and i had no one to talk to -.-

hav a humans test tmr. geez. i'll just read through my essay since the questions are already given. and mrs peng said gab and i were b-e-a-utiful. how many times do you get that comment?? haha.. okay okay.. i'm being abit buai bai. but sherlyn agreed!! and its unforced. -grins sheepishly.

joel pang seh me -.- see properly hor, its joel who pang seh me, not the other way round. his mom didnt allow him ta go out cuz he had to study. so i yue sherlyn out instead. i dragged gab with me to tiong to say hi to her. she was going to orchard cine with the guys, and because of me she was late. so nw i have to treat her to a movie.

the fockers wasnt really worth it. i didnt really like it. robert de niro rocks though :)

went for lunch and met joel at the busstop outside jcc. we were a tad late. but no harm done. we got turns to try an arrangement on the drums. i was really nervous. sher and joel learnt abit before, and they were rather good at it. hui wen and i were so nervous and scared we screwed up. in the end we could all play along with a song played ont he piano. hee. i'm so proud of all of us, esp me :)

tmr zq's playing the drums! muahaha..

we're gonna get our hair cut. cut fringes. sher wanted this funky hairstyle. isabelle's cutting too. so the four of us [plus xiufeng] will have fringe. i hope kristal, jinli and wendy wont say i copy them tho.. ... sher and joel kept scolding me cuz i was so worried about what they would think.

tmr i guess i'll be sitting with joel in service. he doesnt like sitting with jon and xiufeng cuz of his and xiufeng's past. it can get really awkward.

im starving.. arg..

damn sway lah.. today's my birthday and im sick -.- i wish i could go to school. there's maths today. yeesh. i dont want to miss any lesson now that im catching up.

just came back from the doctor. he and my mom started discussing about education overseas -.- he said he hated the system here. he said it sucks. haha. and they were like, debating over the education system ..

its damn sian lah.. all i can do today is to sleep, eat, use the computer and watch tv. haiiii. i want to go back to school!! i wonder what's shumei doing nw x)

celebrated ma birthday yesterday night. dad wanted a picture of us in front of the cake, but i was sneezing away so i wasnt really in the mood to smile. gab was really sian. and guess wad my mom did. she did a star jump behind my dad to get us to smile. yea it worked cuz she looked really stupid. i remember she used to do it to make us laugh whenever my dad wanted a picture taken about 5-6 years ago.

im thinking whether i should still go out tmr. y'know, wtih joel. well, im definitely not missing my drum lessons for anything. oh well. i gotta go. seeyuhz.

im talking to joel on de phone. he has the orientation today and he's really bored. ours is tmr but for badminton i dont hav to go. hahaa. i rarely get a break so let me gloat for awhile.

i have to stay back tomorrow. belle and xiufeng wanted my company.. i wanted to go home and spend the day studying for my humans test on monday. they have orientation thinger until like, 830. i guess i can spend five hours with them after school.

i need a new bag!! the bag i have now is like, 2 years old ler. and my younger sister is damn privileged lah. i mean, she changes her bag four times last year. yeesh.

i cant wait for saturday! =P i'll be meeting joel before drum lessons. im freaking excited lah. finally i can learn drums. im proud of myself :)

zhengliang reminds me so much of zhi qiang. >.< i miss him :D

havent been updating for awhile. i cant stand anymore of my dad's sarcasm. my mom think he's a hoot but he can really be insulting at times. of course, he's oblivious to it. he misinterprets what i'm saying and ends up giving a really stupid comment.

anw, today was a riot. shumei "maligned" me today. she told miss thio that i was disturbing her. it was the other way round of course. well, we were just joking around. she made this comment, and i commented back. for some reason, she found my comment really hilarious and kept laughing. and she told miss thio that i was -ahhem- being horny.

which was totally not true la. there was nothing disgusting about what i said. oh wellz. we just ended up joking around with each other.

i cant believe it. i'm sixteen in two days. noooo!! i'm so old. haiii.

meeting joel on saturday. i wanted to go out on friday cuz i would like some company on my birthday. well, he couldnt make it, so we're going out on saturday instead. which was just as well, because we had drum lessons that day at five anw. we could go for lunch and a movie or something before heading over to jcc.

p.s. i hope zhi qiang will be there too :P



oh, i'll be changing my link to: ouch-.blogspot.com

today was the first day of school. first thing, come to school, and i saw bensee. sian.

first day was all talks and class contact. geez, i really hate my class. hai. i really really really wish i was in 4f. i didnt know how to treasure the time i had with them last year.

sherlyn's counsellor. thats great, i'm really happy for her. however, i cant help but feel we're growing more and more distant. i took a photo of us together with my phone and she did too. i dont want to make new friends [well, get more acquainted with the rest] because i'm afraid i'd spend all my time with them and forget about my old clique. and i dont want that to happen.

lets drop that subject. maybe i'll ask joel out on friday or saturday. since orientation is on friday [ccas to set up booths for sec1s to see], i cant spend that day with xiufeng and the rest. they're all gonna be busy with their own stuff. :( maybe i'm not involved in the badminton booth. so since i would like some company on friday, i'll ask joel if he's interested in going out somewhere.

or maybe on saturday, since we both have drum lessons at 3. or 4. i'll check later. i was thinking maybe we could go catch a movie or have lunch before heading over to jcc. well. maybe.

joseph proposed to pei en!!

i've just finished elaborating about it in my other diary but i still cant get over it. xiufeng was so impressed by what joseph dared to do. i mean, come on, he proposed to her in front of the whole youth. thats gotta take guts. after youth ended and all, xiufeng went around asking people if she could marry them. haha.

i still dont know my class next year. rats.

went to watch the kung fu show today. the storyline is kind of mirrored with the matrix. the ending was ok, but i really abhor that type of shows. those with brutal scenes. i think jon and belle should knw. there was this part which involved snakes, and i was like, ohmygosh. i detest being near a snake, real or not. just writing about gives me the jitters. i really recoil from them. no pun intended.

stephen chow is totally cool! i mean, he wrote the show, directed and produced it, as well as star in it. after that went to walk around. my shoes were pinching because i wasnt really used to them. it was only the second time i was wearing them. it belongs to either my mom of my sister[s].

i reached home just as my parents were going out to dinner. my mom looks beautiful tonight. she used to be chased by alot of guys, but she was my dad's love-at-first-sight-only-true-love. he never gave up joi-ing her. romantic right?! hai. so envious. =P

too bad i didnt catch sherlyn at orchard. she told me she was going there today.

its 00:02.

happy new year !!